The pain was panic. The thoughts were crowding. Suffocating. Sleep where are you? Then I heard it. Over and over they came. Stonger and stronger they rang. The words were coming from way back in my mind. Marching forward the words came stronger and stronger. “Tis so sweet to trust in Jesus”. Those words dispelled my anxiety. Their sweetness calmed my fears. He was coming to me in the night again. I was not alone.
Pain. Such a tool. Such wisdom. Oh, it’s only temporary. But it seems eternal when it roars. Physical, mental, emotional. Pain talks. Pain positions. Pain focuses. Where does it take me? What does it accomplish?
If I fear the pain it controls me. It tries to threaten me, especially when it comes in the night seasons. Sleep don’t run from me now I need you to take me away from here. But where can I go that He’s not there?
My days are full. Busy. Too busy, too distracted. Thank you pain for finding me in the night. “Tis so sweet to trust”. My hiding place is You, my God. My Savior. My Hope. I’m awake. I can not hid from You but I can hid in You.
Choices. I want to hid but You force me to choose. I search for my heart. Where is my heart? Who am I really? I can’t hid. You’ve discovered me. You’ve cornered me. You have captured me. But it’s not the me that I think I am that you want, it’s my heart. My secret heart. I struggle, "but it’s MY heart".
Why do I keep it back from You? What am I saving it for? I’ve been deceived too long. “Tis so sweet”. Trusting you is the sweetness I’ve been searching for all my life. All my quick, fleeting life.
It’s all speeding by so quickly now. I can see the blur of my childhood. Bits and pieces. Was it really me or just a movie I saw once long ago? Where are the days rushing me? Of course, it’s to You. Without Your interruption my days would swiftly take me the way of all flesh. But then I hear You singing to me again far off in the distance…“Tis so sweet to trust in Jesus. Just to take Him at his word. Jesus. Jesus. How I love you. How I’ve learned to trust you more. Jesus. Jesus. Precious Jesus. Teach me Lord to trust you more”.
Peace settles into my spirit again as You sing over me from deep within. In all my confusions I almost forgot that You live inside me. I relax back into His arms, His everlasting arms. I don’t really know how long the journey will be or where it will take me next. Pain? Sorrow? Fears? They all try to bully me. Then way down deep I hear Him gently singing again. “Tis so sweet…” then I remember His promises. ‘He gives His beloved sleep…and when I awake I shall see His face.’
Fear where have you gone? Pain you can’t rule over me for ever!
I always have a choice in this life…and so do you.
THINK ABOUT IT!
Pain. Such a tool. Such wisdom. Oh, it’s only temporary. But it seems eternal when it roars. Physical, mental, emotional. Pain talks. Pain positions. Pain focuses. Where does it take me? What does it accomplish?
If I fear the pain it controls me. It tries to threaten me, especially when it comes in the night seasons. Sleep don’t run from me now I need you to take me away from here. But where can I go that He’s not there?
My days are full. Busy. Too busy, too distracted. Thank you pain for finding me in the night. “Tis so sweet to trust”. My hiding place is You, my God. My Savior. My Hope. I’m awake. I can not hid from You but I can hid in You.
Choices. I want to hid but You force me to choose. I search for my heart. Where is my heart? Who am I really? I can’t hid. You’ve discovered me. You’ve cornered me. You have captured me. But it’s not the me that I think I am that you want, it’s my heart. My secret heart. I struggle, "but it’s MY heart".
Why do I keep it back from You? What am I saving it for? I’ve been deceived too long. “Tis so sweet”. Trusting you is the sweetness I’ve been searching for all my life. All my quick, fleeting life.
It’s all speeding by so quickly now. I can see the blur of my childhood. Bits and pieces. Was it really me or just a movie I saw once long ago? Where are the days rushing me? Of course, it’s to You. Without Your interruption my days would swiftly take me the way of all flesh. But then I hear You singing to me again far off in the distance…“Tis so sweet to trust in Jesus. Just to take Him at his word. Jesus. Jesus. How I love you. How I’ve learned to trust you more. Jesus. Jesus. Precious Jesus. Teach me Lord to trust you more”.
Peace settles into my spirit again as You sing over me from deep within. In all my confusions I almost forgot that You live inside me. I relax back into His arms, His everlasting arms. I don’t really know how long the journey will be or where it will take me next. Pain? Sorrow? Fears? They all try to bully me. Then way down deep I hear Him gently singing again. “Tis so sweet…” then I remember His promises. ‘He gives His beloved sleep…and when I awake I shall see His face.’
Fear where have you gone? Pain you can’t rule over me for ever!
I always have a choice in this life…and so do you.
THINK ABOUT IT!
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